Fear and self loathing in the Midwest

I’m beginning to doubt me.

It’s incredibly scary to type that sentence. I’ve always known who I am. I’ve always had a plan. I’ve always been working toward the next big thing. Until now…

I’m in uncharted territory and I’m fearful and unsure and blaming myself.

3 thoughts on “Fear and self loathing in the Midwest

  1. Is this because of the whole stay at home mom thing? My ex did that. The mistake she made…she had nothing else. I see it like this: I like my job. It’s the best job I’ve ever had. I work for a wonderful company, but if I had to live there, I’d go nuts. Your job is now your home and children. It is so important that you have a hobby that gets you away from it sometimes. A couple hours a day that you take for yourself. It will be the most rewarding job you’ve ever had. You will watch your children grow up. What could be better. Have fun!!!

  2. It’s hard when life throws us a curve ball. You’ve been careful, goal oriented and motivated for your professional career. Until you make a decission on what’s next, do things that allow you to express your creativity. You have words in you, use them. Write, write write. And when you’re done writing, write some more. If you want to share them, you know I’m always around. If you keep them private, keep them close, it’s what will keep you sane and motivated.

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